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September 2008 
Studying self and forgetting self
Posted on Apr 17th, 2008
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Sanjuro
Sanjuro
Things are pretty awful at work. Not much business. I thought about losing my job, even though I am very employable, my ‘scared’ voice spoke up and clamped its hands on the adrenaline pump and gave me a jolt. But you know, I have been practising being mindful for quite a while now, so I thought I'd take this one on, and not just 'do something'.
So I thought… hmmm lmy 'control' mind wants control again, lets examine this…This is a kind of blow by blow - like minutes of a meeting...except the committee was in my head!
- when a negative thought (my job my future!) invokes self/ego it seems to close down the mind space where opportunities and ideas that would otherwise be liberating would flourish – the change process is not easily welcomed by the self/ego.
- Words like disruption came to mind, the negative mind just fills my head with pessimism.
- This creates anxiousness
- This then leads to some sort of survival mind taking over, speeding up breathing, limiting options to fight or flight. This is felt immediately.
but then i held that and decide to 'think' that the problem was someone elses, to see if that would change how I felt...
- ...and so if it is not you, but someone else having this problem, you the observer are not overwhelmed with anxiousness, and can think of alternative ways out of the situation with given experiences and the resources available to them.
- Though this is difficult to do if you are projecting your fears onto the other and then feeling overwhelmed on their behalf. This would be a sort of pathological empathy. Not understanding but appropriating.
I have found some of this very helpful.
And this
And this
And this
And this
So I thought… hmmm lmy 'control' mind wants control again, lets examine this…This is a kind of blow by blow - like minutes of a meeting...except the committee was in my head!
- when a negative thought (my job my future!) invokes self/ego it seems to close down the mind space where opportunities and ideas that would otherwise be liberating would flourish – the change process is not easily welcomed by the self/ego.
- Words like disruption came to mind, the negative mind just fills my head with pessimism.
- This creates anxiousness
- This then leads to some sort of survival mind taking over, speeding up breathing, limiting options to fight or flight. This is felt immediately.
but then i held that and decide to 'think' that the problem was someone elses, to see if that would change how I felt...
- ...and so if it is not you, but someone else having this problem, you the observer are not overwhelmed with anxiousness, and can think of alternative ways out of the situation with given experiences and the resources available to them.
- Though this is difficult to do if you are projecting your fears onto the other and then feeling overwhelmed on their behalf. This would be a sort of pathological empathy. Not understanding but appropriating.
I have found some of this very helpful.
And this
And this
And this
And this
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Mmmm…deep stuff. Great links - thanks.
Maybe you can benefit from both deepening the mindfulness AND “doing something”?
Hope it all works out.
Oh and it goes way deep. :)
It seems that some of us have just stuff thats deep, and other folks stuff thats not so, and who knows why that is. We are just dealt a hand. And its our job to really discover what the hand is, and it doesnt matter that we try and show it to others, they dont know either. They may lead us in directions, or spirals or nowhere. Just because they are themselves and we are just a tangent different. It seems you dont chose your path, the path has been chosen by many forces, your die is cast. Except it also seems that the die is much larger than you ever thought, and its much different than you ever thought, and in a sense thats the root of confusion. You are who you are, but its not exactly who you think you are - you just haven't walked all the property yet….
We will get there when we feel what there is. :)
I see your studies have been especially deep these past few weeks.
Warm wishes; or peace be with you–whichever sentiment speaks best to how things are going.